Sleep is cheating on me....

I mean really it must be because when I go to bed it's not there.  I've been back and forth on some different social/blog readings and I realize one thing.  Nothing has been done in an order.  I had a very good past blog and was completely busted for a few things I wrote about particular situations. I see now better ways of conducting my thought process.  Through my stints through college and my past and present careers life has truly been and interesting ride.  Usually I don't see it at the time but I realize now it's been emotional and heartfelt. 

My biggest down fall is my honesty.  One could say I'm too honest, however with that being said if I am your friend why would I lie to you?  What would either of us gain?  Don't lie to me is all I ask.  I'd rather you not say anything at all.  Which brings me to this:  I've been trying to better myself by being more self aware of my surroundings, listening more, being enlightened and more tolerant of others. 

Enlightened yes... tolerant still working on that.  I don't go off the deep in with anger very often, however I lost my ever loving mind not to long ago, and felt like a complete jack***, and spouted off some very vile and down right hateful things.  The person who heard me lose it was in shock, but understood I had, had enough.  It's OK for this to happen.  Is it right?  One has to be at  peace with any decision they make so I can't tell you yes or no.  Did I feel better, at the time, yes I did.  Shortly after, no.  Now I feel nothing, I have let it go and learned that I will never let a situation  get the best of me.  Or people for that matter.  In a few weeks I'm going to be going through some major life changes events.  I hope for the better. I hope I still accept who I am trying to become, while holding on to who I am.

Starting Over

Hello I'm Violet, at least this time around.  This is probably the 4th time I've started a blog.  I used to be an avid blogger had a few followers and I followed a few.  I like many had/have a social networking page, but realize most the people on those pages are to self absorbed to take on a real conversation about real issues.  At least without being drama queens, demanding their opinions are the only ones that are right, and dismissing everyone else.  I am here to say, everyone counts, and life is bigger than any one person.  Basically get over yourself, and if you've become one of these people it is never to late to change.  Whatever your hardship in life, your health, love, or even your path comment, I'd like to read what you have to say. 

I'd like to say, nice to meet you, hope you have a beautiful day and emotions are in everyone of us, it's OK to feel :)